Trauma into Triumph

Traumas. They can happen to anyone. Maybe at different times and perhaps to different degrees but how we emerge from trauma is truly defining.

The definition of trauma is (acccording to Wikepedia) : A deeply distressing or disturbing experience." a personal trauma like the death of a child"

2.MEDICINE physical injury.synonyms:injury, damage, wound;

Experiencing different traumas over my life has had devastating effects and remarkable positive effects on my life. Though at the time I could only feel the gripping feeling of suffering & pain.

My earliest memory of trauma in my life was one of sexual abuse. As a young child not only was this confusing and terrifying but for many years it left a scar that I though might not ever be healed. It left me with feelings of distrust, self loathing, shame and deep sadness. It left a hole in me that I would spend many years of my life trying to fill.

Many years later an even deeper trauma would again pierce it knife into my very being. In 2010 my daughter died. Emily was only five years old. Brain cancer had ravaged her body. What I witness and experienced was nothing compared to what she went thru however the wound that trauma left dug a pit so deep I feared I would never escape.

2018....Here I am. A survivor of multiple traumas. I have emerged. I have a path. I have a purpose. I am awakened. Could this have occurred without trauma(s)? Perhaps. But I do not think to the depths or with the vastness of which I am starting to understand.

You can let trauma take you or you can take trauma and let it move you. Let it in. Explore it. Lie in it if you must. But break thru it and rise from it. Let it empower and dis-empower you. Breathe it in but also exhale. Trauma does not define you. You define the trauma and give it purpose. Not meaning but purpose.

With Love & Light,

Priscilla

artwork by: Priscilla Young 2017

Doodling with crayons